"Making new memories to replace bad ones." - This is what I believe
would help getting over sad memories of those you want to forget.
And for my case, there are these so-called dates that I wish to forget.
So,
there's this one guy that I know and I had a HUGE crush on, but things
just didn't work out between us. We've known each other for almost 3
years now, and for 2.5 years, our relationship was strictly professional
as we were working in the same office - and the fact that he had higher
position didn't help either. Only after the news that he was moving to
an overseas that we started having more casual chat sessions. I think it
was partly due to him easing up since we would not be working together
for long anymore.
On his last full night in Singapore, he texted
me and we kept on texting until very late or even almost morning as we
only ended it at around 3 AM. And apparently we were texting throughout
his outing with his friends (probably having his farewell drinking
party). I was surprised - and also flattered - that he kept on texting
me though he was with his friends at that moment. I mean, if it was me
having my last outing with friends before I left for good to other
country, I would not be doing it while texting someone else.
The
next day, he had times until midnight as his flight was at 1 AM, and so
in the afternoon I texted him, wishing to send him off, but he
suggested us to meet in the city instead. And so we did, and it was very
fun. Together we were kinda shameless, childlike, and just couldn't
care less of what others thought of us, two adults doing stupid stuff
together.
Then he left for another continent, and yet we were
still chatting, and even more frequent than when we were in the same
office. I could feel that it was more casual and friend-like altogether.
I suppose being on separated continents did good for our relationship.
Three
months after that, he had one day transit in Singapore after his
business trip in India. And on that Saturday, he texted me in very late
afternoon, asking if I wanted to meet him later that night, and of
course I would love to meet him!
So then, we went for dinner and
a drink that night. I was very happy seeing him... Even though I also
noticed that his grey hair had multiplied compared to the last time
I met him... But he was still alive and well, and that was what
important.
To cut the story short, we had a fall-out.
I
thought that I had a chance with him and that he might have opened up
and changed his mind about being single forever, when apparently, he
doesn't change at all. He still sticks to his so-called oath to be
single and alone forever, and all along he didn't realize that he had
led me on by doing what he did. I couldn't say that I wasn't to blame
either. I had my share of having too much expectation and wishful
thinking and stubborn-ness...
Anyway... it's time to move on!
These
dates happened in 2 famous places - landmarks of Singapore that I
actually would like to visit again and I don't want to be reminded of
our dates or him every time I go there.
The first so-called date
was at Esplanade, the famous
durian-like-and-inspired-by-Sydney-opera-house landmark in the center of
Singapore.
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| Esplanade at night |
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| Marina Bay Sands |
The second one was at Marina Bay Sands, another famous landmark, a new
hotel + casino + shopping mall + museum near Esplanade that is always
full with tourists from all around the world.
So then I decided I had to make new memories that would replace my old memories... however... things don't always happen as we want them to be...
If anything, all along the outings I had with friends at those two places only reminded me more of him :(
Sigh...
Humm... a dear friend of mine actually said that the easiest way to get over someone is by getting a new one... if only it is THAT easy...
